In My Own Little World... Population Me.

From the hours of 7:15 to 9am and 2:15 to 4:30 I am a personal school bus. By the time Kaitlyn gets out of school at 4:15 I am DONE with traffic.

Yesterday I picked her up and we had to stop at the grocery store. We get to the store aaand I realize I left my purse WITH MY WALLET IN IT at home. Oh Yay. So we go Back To The House, grab my purse and head back to the store.

As we're driving, a guy on a motorcycle pulls out in front of me and goes about 5 miles an hour. I was SO irritated. I was all like...  expletive expletivee expletiveee!! (Can you tell that patience isn't what I do best?)

Aaaand then I hear this song starts playing on the radio. 

Touche God. Touche. 

To be Known is to be Loved and to be Loved is to be Known

Otherwise what's the point in doing either of them in the first place... ?

I want to Be Known.
I want someone to look at my face and not just see two eyes, a nose, a mouth and two ears. 
But to see All That I Am And Could Be. All my Hopes, Loves and Fears...


So in the spirit of Being Known, here is a little bit about me... In a Listt<3 

Because I love those:):)

• I'm a single mother of 6 (Yes SIX ) Awesomee kids. 3 boys and 3 girls ranging in age from 4 to 15:)  Plus 3 teenage nieces. Aaand various other teenagers who all have homes and parents but still think they belong here<3 I'm considering starting a baseball team. Or maybe a soccer team. I can't decide which one because I know virtually Nothingg about sports. I don't like them or dislike them. I just don't understand them. LOL have you ever tried to ask an avid sports fan Wth is happening during a game?? Hahahaa. Just...  no. I would not advise it:D Football isn't even an option because, well... I would suckk at playing football. A bunch of huge men mean mugging and chasing me For A Ball I'd just be like... Here. You can have the ball. Lolol If it means that much to you I'll just go get another one:D:D
• I Overanalyze and Overthink everything. TO the point where I Annoy Myself with it. But not usually out loud. Or at least out loud only to a select few. 
• However... typing is Veryy quiet so analyzing on my blog doesn't count. Yayy You:D (You've got to ask yourself one question. Do you feel lucky? Well... do ya punk??)
• Hahaa some things get stuck in my head easily. Like movie quotes:D  I can't hear the words This One Time without IMMEDIATELY thinking At Band Camp afterwords.  And every time I think the word forever, I hear it in the voice of the little boy in The Sandlot. Foorreeevvveerrrrrrrr. Either that or Foreva? Forevaa Eva?? Foreva Evaa. I can't even remember where that came from but I can hear the voices perfectly;)
• There is Always background music in my head and sometimes I speak in cheesy song lyrics.  Music speaks to my soul and I like a little bit of everything. My taste in music is veryy eclectic and ranges from Beastie Boys to Micheal Buble to Alanis to Nine Inch Nails to Bone Things N Harmony to The Beatles to For King and Country to Christina Perri. And everything around and in between:D
• I am a Ninjaa in the kitchen. My culinary skills are Amazinggg. I've even been compared to a Kitchen Elf (wth!?) and I Was Told that this was a good thing:D I'm not so suree this is true as the same source also told me that my Indian Name would be Fire Dancer Who Burns Down Kitchen. -__-  Ohkayy so...  I have literally torched 3 kitchens. I don't know how. Lol. One day, I can make the most amazing chicken fajitas everrr, And the next I get distracted baking muffins and end up with Kitchen Flambee'. Complete with an appearance from Tampa Fire Rescue. Smhh. But not in the last 2 years soooo.. I don't think it should count anymore:) Others seem to disagree. Apparently if you burn down a kitchen or three, no one ever lets you forget it;) 
• I'm Graceful in Spirit. Because that sounds better than Absolute Klutz.
• I have Excellent navigation skills. I can use a GPS to make it from Florida to South Carolina and back. Even though the GPS kept rudely reprimanding me and telling me to Please Follow The Route. But I have gotten lost on the way to work (where I've been driving to and from for 2 years) about 4 times in a month and a half.  Someone once told me that's because my head is in the clouds and road signs are.. well.. on the road:D

I was described earlier today as an Adorable Dorkk. Idk about the adorable part buuuttt it Made Me Smile so I'm just gonna go with that:):):)

Just because everything's changing doesn't mean it's never been this way before.

I guess It's Been A While. I used to blog here but.. since I'm technically Not A Wife anymore it just didn't seem right. I'm in a completely different place now. Starting Over. So I figure since everything else is Fresh and New, my blog should be too:D

That and well... if you know me then you know I really just like starting new blogs. I guess some things aren't so different;)

If  I'm being completely honest (and really, what's the point in not??) then I have to admit that I have very ambivalent feelings about the whole starting over process. Most days I feel like it's an Amazing opportunity. The peace I have that I was never able to have before. The freedom of being able to become Exactly who I was created to be. It's indescribable. But it's also Definitely still a Work In Progress. Because other days I feel Exhausted and Overwhelmed and like This Shit Is Just Hard.

There's an analogy in one of my favorite books, The Shack, that describes our spiritual growth as being like a fractal garden. When you're standing in the middle of it, it looks wild, unorganized, like a mess. but when you stand back and look from afar you see the patterns emerge and it's beautiful. I know I'm in the middle of it and all I can see is a big hott mess. But it's nice to think that someday I will be able to stand back and look from afar and see that there is something beautiful there after all.

At the end of the day, I'm thankful for where I am, and most of all I'm thankful that He's Not Finished With Me Yet:):)